Every two years my kids’ school hosts a huge fundraiser, a live and silent auction theme party (this year it’s Back to the 80’s) that benefits our school and parish community. I volunteered to be the chair back in 2017 because I am insane and didn’t know I would be pregnant a few months later.
After a year of hard work with a crew of amazingly generous and talented moms, this Saturday is finally the big night.
As much as it’s been occasionally frustrating and time consuming, it’s also been incredibly satisfying. I can’t believe how much I’ve enjoyed the process and what it’s done for me personally.
Society glamourizes entrepreneurship. The idea of every day being different, having autonomy over your schedule, and the ability to make a living doing something you love is obviously appealing. Who wouldn’t want that?
But, I’ve been an entrepreneur for 15 years. I can tell you there is a brutal dark side to it that is isolating, filled with the unknown and operates on a landscape so ever-changing it’s almost impossible not to feel like you are always three steps behind.
The last few years with this business have been challenging. I’ve had more setbacks and more failures than I care to mention. At least once a week I wanted to throw my computer across my office.
Add to that aging (me) in this industry and feeling over-leveraged at home … I’ve been feeling increasingly defeated.
So to be able to devote myself to something, to lead teams, see the process through, and have it be a success as given me back some of the confidence I’ve been lacking. Seeing that my efforts can result in a “win” after feeling like I was loosing for so long, was just what I needed.
As crazy as it sounds, this experience has helped me feel purposeful again and is helping me feel reenergized.
I’ll be showing some of the fun behind the scenes activities this week on Instagram and my 80’s look that many followers helped me put together.
What about you?
I’m sure there are times in all of our lives when we need that infusion of confidence. I’m shocked I found mine where I did, but as I think more about it, it makes sense.
What about you?
How have you gained back your confidence after you felt like you lost it for a bit?